Just to save this before I close the chat window, but its arthur spilling his guts after he broke up with that indian chick haha. And me getting rejected by Amelie! "sad"
ok ill type what i said
its corny
jakmai
oh, uh i didnt know you were seeing someone i dont think u mentioned it. its okay dont worry about it :) I just ment i miss you like whatevers
then she said
:) k glad we're good on that.
i sold myself out arthur!
KancerStick
lol i should tell u what i said to mohini
it was way worse
jakmai
lol
wat hap
KancerStick
it was like 7 text msg
jakmai
LOL
KancerStick
lol
but hey im glad i did it
uhh ill try to type it out
KancerStick
hey. you dont need to reply to this txt. it is the last one that i will be sending to you. im sorry for being emo but here it goes : So ive been thinking for a while that i need to move on instead of waiting and hoping that something will happen between you and i. im sure that i told you before that i am looking for a girlfriend at the moment. i never said or tried anything to make you uncomfortable because you told me you wanted to be single. i really tried to win you over but 4 months has gone by and nothing has changed. I think that if something were to happen, it would have by now. i feel really depressed saying this but i hope you understand that i cant see you anymore. Im really sad that i have to let you go but thinking about you everyday was making me insane. your going to hawaii anyway so i think i was hoping for something unrealistic. I really enjoyed the time i spent with you and will cherish it. I hope you succeed in whatever you do. i love you and will miss you tons.
lol that was the entire text msg
but hey it worked...she has been calling me nonstop and texting me
which i have been ignore
but oh well
jakmai
lol
KancerStick
i think mine was gayer than urs
way gayer
jakmai
lol
well mine was out of shame and embarrisment
after she rejectred me
damn thats like ur heart and soul man
KancerStick
yeah
i really meant what i said
jakmai
thats like a fucking poem
KancerStick
LOl

Was fun, I had a good time at Shanto's party. A buncha people i dont know that were sort of strange actually. Vince fabio and estalla and sun was there, connie the coworker showed up later "shes a handful". Let me tihnk.... I remember beer pong, and some kings cup thats about it. A few hot chicks, but they vanished fast? Haha sad!
Partied at sun's house the next night. So at sun's pool party there was these two mexican chicks, one was giving the other a lap dance. The one dancing had one too many rolls on her stomach. So sun was like ohhh free show, so i looked over my shoulder and said not even worth it. Everyone started was like OHHH thats fucked up lol. Gave me a hard time. But yeah! it wasnt a pretty sight trust me, you'd agree if you werent drunk like everyone else. I also too carol home to LA, she slept the entire way. I wish she would open up to me more to me.

So I was chilling with my friend at Cafe Lui...I believe thats how you spell it. Well that place was crowded, more so then DV2. First impression was DAMN, the girls were pretty! Well dude stop for a sec yeah they are supposed to be pretty but not all coffee shop girls are if you know. I was sorta impressed compared to the other places. Everything was dandy except for the lack of the behind.. not all girls are blessed the same with a voluptuous vixen's booty. I know I'm probably too judgmental and picky about this subject since everything else I'd have to give an A, besides that older fobby girl. Kevin Dang on the other hand doesn't discriminate so he enjoyed it much more then I did. Problem was that these chicks weren't friendly at all. I mean what gives dude we are paying customers I demand you to smile! Don't they remember they work for tips? Uncool and that two bucks we left for tip was a plethora of tip!
Four stars I'd hit it.

yeah so summers here... been pretty slow actually. Nothing much to report...
I went to LA to hang out with fabio and carol. She brought this chick along for us but.. not the best looking thing. It was a fun night. I saw the hangover also that movie totally makes me want to go to vegas now so time to form a party!

Well I skipped out on a few good posts sadly, but I'm going to make a quick update. I think this Tuesday I went out of class back to my car and found out someone left a note on it. Well at first from afar I thought it was a ticket but when i found out it was a note I was pretty intrigued. Butttt the note said to whom it may concern, I hit your car.....and so on. Well the dude hit my 1/4 panel!!1 bastard! totally uncool because I love nat! let me find a pic...
well all is well because I managed to get his info after I gave him a quick call in the library. Most people wouldn't have the decency to leave a note and just take off. I'm sure my alarm went off and someone saw so he couldnt do that. So I I'm collecting money and getting a new-er car =D. I'm saving up but thats hard to do. hopefully I'll get what I want by the start of next year. I dont mind driving my beat up car, Its a total blast still. Took Andre in a ride today to Inglewood for the Audi experience, it was so cool, I got to auto cross in a suv hah! And I'm still alive!

because one of my ex girlfriend's life sucks and she hates it. isn't that awesome? =D

damn has it been weeks since i been back to this place. So whats new? oh wait youre a web page and you cant talk. haha silly me. Its been really over due for a new post isnt it! I been too lazy and cought up with life to actually write something decent. Horrible grammar and spelling btw. uhhh lets see... school ends in um 19 days i think. I dont remember theres a counter on my homepage i set up on how many days left till summer, the biggest longest holiday a student gets. Well lets get to the good stuff, life! actually not so much good stuff there, just decent content stuff haha. I got myself a ps3 finally yay! I get to watch my grades go down the drain again, I promise. You know whats on my mind? My car, i parked it outside right where there was broken glass...im sure a car got broken in at the same spot i parked it tonight. Not a good idea to park there right? haha. fuck me where else am i gonna park at this stupid apt.
So i been kicking it often with gabby lately. Idk what im doing I guess im just hanging out with her, she just got a boob job which i told her not to. Its still wrapped up so i guess i cant tell a difference yet till she takes it off. Gabby been in real pain but hey, you suffer before you get the benefits right? Well i hope the best for her. Some people tell me she likes me but I dont believe it personally. I just cant imagine her diggin me. I dont think i can date her anyways its just too weird, even tho shes pretty and has a great body. I had chances to mack on her but its... i mean shes... See the things i do for virtue? You owe me one guy up there!

So im giving up my baby natasha, no more fun in the sun, well not really in the sun but you know what i ment. Havent decided on what to get I guess I gotta save up more!

I just took a peek at kevins facebook that guy has a lotta pics with girls i wonder wtf he does to get them! I sorta envy that cursed guy, has major issues but chases girls without shame! I wanna chase girls and be shameless too! Im just that different dude that listens to Morrissey which practially no one my age knows about, hell even less since im asian. Everyone is into akon and lady gaga i guess its whats in right? fuck that go googoo dolls! I guess its hard to relate. Is it really so strange?

Anyways for the past two nights i been watching some kungfu movies, pretty killer dude, just saw fist of legends with jet lee tonight. I tell you its a kung fu version of romeo and juliet with asians but none of the lovers technically die.

oh btw i got poisned by some F;in plant while i was aifsofting this weekend, F flowers! felt like someone was burning my fingertips with a lighter for hours.

well its late, i got clss in just afew hours plus i got a long day ahead, gramps went to the hospital idk why gotta take my mom to visit tomorrow night. Maybe this time he will agree to go back to vietnam. Till next time!

its around, two thirty am right now and im not much in the mood to sleep. Its been a hot humid day today. I spent most of it in my room though, video games haha. Its been a while for me I miss my young teen years where I just play games day in and out.

I feel a little nostalgic tonight, reminiscing about fun relaxed feelings I had on those cool nights back in highschool. How I miss those days, heck it has been only four or five years since and I can hardly recall. Because of this I am very much afraid of becoming twenty two. How the number would reflect who i am, but that person I am expected to be is far in the distance in my eyes. I see myself as a adolescence sixteen year old who has his shoe laces untied half the time. I still have the shoe laces thing going on really. HmmM my stomach is telling me it wants food. Idk what to give it. If my stomach was a monster i would feel it those alien slave girls like jabba the hut feeds those dancer chicks to the big monster in star wars return of the jedi!

Tonight is super chill, I am doing nothing and it feels great, why? I dont know nothing special happened, got drunk last night with arthur in diamond bar but i do that every saturday night. Think im just happy "nirvana"? sOoOoOo what are you up0 to my friend who is reading this? I wonder who you are, and how you were able to read this. If I let you, or you happened to stumble upon this page. Or someone gave it to you without my permission! totally uncool I will track u down and assassinate you.

If life is my witness I am now trying to live as if everyday is the last day of my life. I wil lead myself on to be a more FUN person. Because I am sick of hearing depression news on the tv, it eats me inside to think about this. Slience to the biased tv stations and their propaganda. I think the world needs a modern version of the hippys of the 60s. It would make me feel happy.

Well i absolutely would like to have a conversation with someone right now but thats not going to happen! good night.

I miss phuong. I'm such a retard.

The afternoon feels sticky, not the normal creepy feeling you get with a cold chill that runs down your spine. But the feeling that something is upsetting your mood. I wasn't able to figure out why but, lets start from the beginning.

My friend Phuong just arrived at Diamond Bar this afternoon from her long drive. I gave my promise and got that day off of work to take a little visit. The drive there was hot, I could feel the sweat dripping down my back as i shifted gears. When I finally got there it was a nice welcome. Said hi, the usual stuff, no sarcastic humor yet. There were three girls and two guys, Phuong, her little sister Hang, and their friend Mary. Mary being on the big boned side evidently had a cute face. She's an adorable girl that is looking for attention, but the snobby side of a typical fat girl isn't totally gone yet. Hang was the young jail bait girl, she said hi and gave me a little wave with a smile. Vinh and Edwin are the two guys that accompanied them. Not much to say one big guy one small guy. Felt like they would been great in the god father if an Asian version is released. Last but not least Phuong, the reason why I came to hang out. She isn't your typical girl, she's a loyal friend, now my description of her might be sounding to her favor is because I'm into her not that she knows.

We hung out and I drove them to here or there. Probably the best time I spent with her before immature emotions kicked in. Anyways fast forward a little bit and its been two days since they spent time here. I went off to fix Danny's lude and check out a few new guns. King had some good stuff lately. Nothing special I'm living in the perverse world of a typical college student, I had my eye on her.

Spent a few more days hanging out with Phuong's friends, didn't see much of anyone else this week. What ticked me off is that I barely spoke to her, years passed and miles driven I did not feel comfortable with her. She felt shy and up tight, thats okay. Reminds me that I'm on my own for a reason. I lost faith before I wont again.
More crap when on behind stage between me and phuong. She wasn't mature enough or had the curiosity to put on a fake smile for a friend. I thought she was selfish for asking for so much yet barely put the effort to say much to me. Enough was enough, I wont bitch or wine, I understand. I wasted a few more days dealing with this stuff.

I want to be forgotten.

I am made of popcorn, what better way to explain my self then what I ingest.
My daily diet composes of at least three sodas, some rice, and an assortment of
animals. I prefer beef and chicken as a main diet, but not always. I see a bag of Orville popcorn on my table, a A&W can of rootbeer and a old rotten can of Pringles.
Beneath me in the shadow of my table is a mini bag of M&M's with some cracked, some not ate. Next to it lays a empty but yet still desirable bag of beef jerky from Costco.

I understand the negative sides and disgusting poor nutrition I am receiving, people tell me that nothing lasts and sooner or later I will become a huge blob that cannot move on his own power. The sugar sodium and fat blended together and with some food coloring to transform into a sweet delectable snack people call junk food. I on the other hand praise the term and idea.

"Since junk food is high in fats and sugars, it is responsible for obesity, dental cavities, Type 2 diabetes and heart diseases." Quote Freefatkitchen.com

What? obesity? DENTAL CAVITIES?! Now I am aware of such facts, I open my eyes and sudden i realize how true those statements are. Honestly I would run and see no evil or hear of it but sadly ignorance is not bliss. I believe I am close to getting diabetes due to all this crap. Am I stopping, if you are wondering? Simple answer is, I'm in the process. It can't be helped, well maybe but my mindset is locked on certain things. Pleasing my taste buds and sugar cravings, its like quitting smoking. Really addictive and if no negative health signs arise, ignore all warnings pass go, collect two hundred dollars and continue to indulge in your addiction.

So since I'm working out more often lately I should change my eating habits. Problem is my eating habits almost defines my life style. Take one plus one is two, then junk food plus computer is me. Okay so not that great of a similarity, but I always visioned myself as a big fat loser with glasses that sits in a dark room "which I'm doing right now" eating while jerking off to some sort of porn.

Thankfully that's not the complete picture of me, that's the super dark hidden side wink wink. I am a creative and intuitive person who's character can be described as Charlie brown distant lost cousin faded if he was Asian, and definitely more perverted.

ANyways back to the candy issue, since I do not believe I will or am able to change my disgusting diet. I will simply add onto it healthy food, and occasionally protein drinks. Cheating yes! But I don't care anymore. Well back to my movie, The Midnight Meat Train, fucking bloody gore, so good! Best horror movie this year dyudee

Hm, I was informed tonight that AIG was going to be bailed out with a 30 billion plan. Which means each person will pay 1,400 in taxes to support that plan. BOO!! I am ready for the world to move to a scenario of Mad Max or something along those post nuclear war life.

On to other news, I went airsofting on sunday. Most enjoyable moment was when I got shot on top of my head, felt awesome. But first round my new echo1 had some grounding issues, it did not want to fire. Total bust, ticked me off so I borrowed a gun and that crapped on me too. Had it fixed during a break though so that was good. It was chill, terrain was rough, got cut up and almost fell. Not the best in fun factor but hey, good times.

I didn't really get to tell Phuong about much lately especially that since she's been missing. Probably still mad at me and refuses to tell me about it. Really pissing me off! I don't know so i wont assume, at least not till I find out. I give up asking her friend Mary about her status, girls, you can never trust them to keep quite.

Actually haven't been talking to anyone at all.

Wonder how Danny is doing with his obsessive ex girl. If I was him I'd hire someone to take her of her pertinently. A team such as the replacements, or Pulp Fiction. I wouldn't mind doing it myself. I'll probably get a kick out of it since life has been so plain and dull. How does anyone get past being 25? Because at the rate I'm living my life, I'll commit suicide by 23.

A good song to reflect on right now is, Toad the wet sprocket - All I Want.
Mellow stuff dude!

Everyone asked themselves rhetorical questions about life and it's meaning. I on the other hand been asking when am I finally going to die. Life's been doll, unsatisfying, haha well maybe unsatisfying is too much. I guess there's nothing to do lately, wake up, go to work/school and then go home and then maybe go out occasionally. I'm a type of person who doesn't understand why some people can go out night after night and party or do the same thing. Maybe I'm asking for so much yet I sit here and do..nothing. Skipped out on clubbing two weeks ago, missed a nice airsoft game everyone is telling me about this Sunday. Well I had a good reason, to study, but I didn't study that much honestly! Worst of all, I got a C on that test which ticks me off! I'm mad at myself for that, especially since Thuy totally beat my score which makes me realize that I am a big dumbass. Unless she lied to me that she barely studied to make herself look good, which really worked, she did a great job.

Okay enough bullshit, so since I am not contempt with my life I will try to change it! And I really mean try, no promises.

First quitting of the kancersticks......... . . . Honest to whoever is up there, this shit is hard to do. I'm going to need more willpower and hopefully some encouragement. Despite the fact that my friends give me cigs when I ask for, besides Fabio. I have no one to blame but myself, I think I'll need a new strategy. Phuong told me if I stop smoking from now till she comes to visit I get a hug. Well I do appreciate her efforts and friendship to give me this motivation. I think chains will be necessary, or maybe some sort of curse that repels them away.

One thing that could help me is if Mai decides to hang out. I known her for a long time, but it's not a close friendship more of an acquaintance now. I actually haven't seen her since the last time we went out. Now do I believe her story that she has evil parents from Mars that keeps her locked up at home? Unlikely, she's immature enough to take things for granted. I tried asking her out a few times and we had good chats online which lead to just flirting and then no where. Bummer, I do find her attractive, but not the type of girl that is not on the same page as me. Abandon ship says my friends, not worth chasing if she doesn't react to anything I attempt.

Gabby tells me she likes the chase and girls love it so Mai could be doing this to me. I say screw that, she feeds off attention and probably is looking for some guy she can put a collar on.
Okay that was a little mean, Danny I know you woulds say "no it's not, bitch better respect" haha.
When you like someone its a pretty nice feeling, then you slowly start to look at aspects and would want to change this or that. But doesn't that ruin the image of that person that made you like them so much? What if I didn't like the way she dresses, is that enough for me to say no change your clothes and get mad about? Whatever she dresses in she's still the same person. What I'm trying to get through is that the perfect someone can be anyone you choose to be. Whoever said Love is blind is undoubtedly correct.

Well I remember a quote my dad told me when I was a freshmen one the way home from school, "no money no honey". Pretty broad dad thanks for the pep talk! He probably knew whats up I didn't have a clue but I noticed that month or something around there he made a few jokes about women. Normally he never does but It was pretty cool. I understand what he was trying to tell me, dad you did a lot for me and you're the best! HOnestly great advice, especially when you found that chick's panties in my room, "don't let your mom find this she will beat you". But looking at a down to earth perspective he's right! Love does not put food on the table as I was told by a friend's ex-girlfriend.

I remembered that conversation as I was at the courthouse on tuesday paying for my ticket. The lady at the window nicely told me my fine was 900 something dollars. That freaked me out and my heart stopped for a little bit. She then said once you show your proof of insurance it's the 157 price which revealed me. Crazy lady did that on purpose i presume for her amusement. I'd probably do the same to customers If I was her.

Other then that just your run about illegal activities to avoid fines here and there. Didn't really enjoy this month's paychecks "thank you state laws".

I got to make a new friend, besides that Chinese girl from the library. Whats her name... lyn? Wait no thats the girl from the coffee shop. Susan! Phuong's best friend, nice girl. Has a interesting perspective at sleeping. She did contridict herself a few times which I have a pet peeve against, but If I'm going to get on Phuong's nice side I should be on her friend's nice side too.

So I kept my mouth shut about that.

Also okie dokie was fun with the guys, ping pong drunk is good, I did notice I talk wayyy too much when I am drunk. Well not a lot actually but in my perspective more then usual. As professor Mead in his theory of the looking glass self, you adjust yourself to people's reaction to you. I am consciouses about my personality and behavior. Always trying to be a better person! =D never know, next life I might be a bug! But I don't believe in that bullcrap...

Well I doubt the mess I just wrote made much sense, but this is not english class.

Okay, so I have to vent a little stress out today. For the past two weeks I been trying to quit smoking. Its not a big deal, well maybe to some this is almost my fifth time trying. ha ha. I'll get it down for sure! Been kinda angry at certain people that I shouldn't be. Its the rage thing, as if I am PMS'ing. Anywho besides that I had a pretty good week.

Tuesday I woke up to an unknown phone call, I picked up and it was Mai on the other end of the line. I was pretty freakin surprised, its been four years plus since I last spoken to her. Now she's calling me? Actually she added me on myspace a week ago and I left her a msg with my number on it, I never thought she would call. Well apparently me and her sorta had a thing back in highschool, we flirted a lot but nothing came out of it. I have to say she is one special girl to me, I still have a letter she wrote to me back in sophomore year.

So good thing she called I was late for class, I forgot most of the conversation but she asked me to hang out today. I had class...but this time I'm not going to let this chance pass up after so long. I ditched one of my classes and drove over to her college and picked her up. Dude, she just looks amazing, she is short as hell haha she always been. Out of luck she really liked my beat up little street rice rocket haha. It was really cool, she was so into talking about cars with me and we just click@! I guess since she has strict parents she missed out on some of the youthful trend and life style.I really had a good time, I took her out to eat at BJ's, she wanted a drink but I didn't feel like getting her drunk so fast plus she didn't have a fake ID and she looks completely under aged.. I lost my appetite because we just sat there looking at each other and catching up on old times and whats been new with each other. Spent a few moments flirting, and it went great =). What really got me stoked about her is that she reaches over and opens the lock for my car on the inside after I open the door for her. If you didn't know my door is manual "shows how much she cares". Took her to the plaza near by to shop around then I took her to the beach. Some how I got lost on the way haha, but it was cool, I gained fifteen minutes just talking and driving with her. Of course she noticed and pointed it out telling me how I just want to spend more time with her. Which was true I didn't hide it, from the looks of it she liked it too.

When we got there we just walked around, I bought her some ice cream at this really cool place. Kinda romantic if it was at night. I took Mai to the beach at the edge of the sand and sat down on a bench, the sun was about to go down in about two hours so it wasn't really sunset but a calm glow. We just stared at each other and talk and at some point I just lost myself in her. We took a picture together but that's for me only.

Afterwards I just took her back but stopped by my apartment to grab a book since I have another class at 7pm. Showed her my room and stuff. Actually I took her to CSU Long Beach since her brother was going to drive her home. I wanted to kiss her but It's been too long and I didn't want to rush anything. When I walked her to the classroom she gave me a hug, since the top of her head reaches my chin I could only give her a kiss on her forehead, she's an innocent girl anyways, as far as I know.

Anyways she ran off to class and two days later we chatted online, she told me she had a good time "freaking awesome" and she wants to take me out to dinner her treat. Hope things go well, its not everyday I meet someone special like this twice in a lifetime. I'm really into her, all over again.

So it actually started to rain not too long after I got out of class. Haha and I was just mentioning about how nice and sunny today was. So yeah Its twenty till midnight and a few hours ago I got sick of the keyboard I was using. Looked around online and I had this urge to buy myself something! I know I shouldn't because this is a tight month with all the tickets due soon and stuff.....but I'm giving up smoking already so I think this is fair ;). So yeah I returned some headphones I been using to exchange for this keyboard since I couldn't find the box for the new keyboard I bought. I was wayyyyy past the 30 day return policy for the headphones so I bit my lip and took a dive.

Got to Fry's Electronic Store and I was really hoping for some credit, that was my initial plan. So there was this Indian chick, or Persian I cannot tell. From the look on her face she had a exhausting day and her eyes tell me she been staring at the computer for most of the day. I was like "Hey hows it going! I'd like to exchange this headset" She looked at me and asked "What was wrong with it?" And I was like "Oh well someone doesn't appreciate gifts". She laughed! Great, I'm getting on her good side I told myself. You see these people have the power to override anything they want. Technically I am not able to exchange or return since I bought these headphones...Jan 1 and today is March 5th. I mean my lips were like a suction cup on her booty. I started to make a little chit chat to keep her busy and unattentive to all the miscellaneous details such as...you know, the date! "So how was your day" blah blah "oh thanks for asking I'm pretty tired" I was like "Oh me too, today is my day off and I'm pretty damn glad!" She takes her eyes off the computer screen and looks at me with a hint of a smile "Oh you're young you have lots of energy" I laughed my fake laugh, Ha Ha Ha, you so funny. "Do you have your receipt with you sir?" I opened my wallet and there it was, I knew she is going to find the date of purchase sooner or later when she runs my card but to be on the safe side..."You know what let me look in my wallet I'm sure its here" ... few moments later.... "I'm sorry I can't find it maybe its somewhere in my car would you like me to get it?" Now its pouring rain outside, my shoes are wet, and I don't want her to call my bluff. If she had any sympathy for me this is the time to show it! "Oh its fine, let me get my manager to approve the credit for exchange". =D WOO HOOO! 90 return policy? I tihnk not! Return policy in writing is so overrated.

So now I am sitting here typing this on my new sexy keyboard, leaned back ^_~ with the keyboard in my lap chillllllllin and satisfied. Came with a little dinky mouse too, but I prefer my current ultra cool glow in the dark mouse. =D

well im finally awake and I made it to class early enough to get some decent parking =D woo hoo. I hate walking far to the car. So im here in the new buisness building chillin before class starts. Got a few more minuets, getting a little hungry probably buy a small cheap snack later or something till I get home. Its a nice morning, sunny, has enough clouds in the sky so you can make out whatever your imagination comes up with. I am pretty bored, usually I'll go check something out or do stuff but here I am writing in this blog before the day started haha. One thing I did notice is that the same girl I think I saw in ISDS class was also here in this area chilling two days ago. Maybe she has my finance class too, anyways I wished I had gotten into that class. I'm stuck with only 9 units this semester, lowest I ever took, but not like I care THAT much right? Less work, just means I'll be here for summer class ;).

I also downloaded this mixtape by some dude on piratebay, It has a few really cool songs, and a lot of really blah songs. The whole collection is composed of Indy Alt music, not for everyone, and certainly most of them is not for me haha. But a few gems stood out like Flunk - blue monday a remake of new order's blue monday. Most people probably won't appreciate that song unless they know the original.

I just noticed that the starbucks right here to my left, has a line out the window by at least 10 people. So bad that there is a girl taking orders in line like how they do at In and Out. Makes me wonder if these guys have such a gap between class and the time to stand in line for coffee, unless they are caffeine addicts then that would make sense. I was one once =) good ol days. Hey I noticed the song I'm listening to is pretty cool Fleeting joys - you are the darkness. And this girl that is sitting next to me, she just got up and picked up her bag. Her aroma filled the air which I caught a hint of, never thought I say this but that was a beautiful scent! I'd laugh at myself if I ever find out that it is some cheap target perfume. Well time for class.

So I'm sitting here in the library at this study desk listening to some music through my laptop. Its about 5:28pm and I am fairly tired, been stuck on campus since early morning around 9am. The atmosphere here seems pretty flat and dead. Theres about only 10 people sitting some where around here max. Really quiet..
nothing close to interesting besides a few girls walking on campus I can see outside my window. Dude I am totally bored out of my mind, I just watched an hour of CNN videos and spent another half an hour looking for some song to download "Didn't even get the song". Um I heard it on Marylin's myspace, honestly I had no idea who sang it till i kept on listening to it. Sounded familiar but I couldn't put my finger on it exactly. Googled it and it was Saves the day! That's another band I completely forgot about from highschool. I been making a list of songs for the past few months, composed of mostly artist that I liked in my highschool days. Yeah my harddrive died a few years ago and I lost a dope collection of mp3's. Major bummer but I started all over again, honestly the music I have now is microscopic compared to the vast amount of P2P songs I had. The depressing part is that I can't remember all of the artist I lost, so when they do pop up again I type it up on my cellphone if I'm on the go or type it up on a notepad. Yup its a long scrutinous task but the satisfaction of listening to a old song smacks that nostalgic feeling into me. Ahhh memories!

So its....Five fourty 2 and only about an hour and twenty minutes to go until class starts. I don't think I will survive unless I take an abundance of notes to keep myself from nodding off. Oh and I get to sit next to Thuy! She is one strange girl, I used to like her, but this chick has personal issues she needs to resolve within herself before anything. It's very unappealing, I try to talk to her but she think she is the renaissance girl. She is a twig and she takes wrestling class, I think thats neat but there's a line between confidence and being who you are. ANYWAYS point is she plays hard to get x562. F that! Well my friends did call her strange at first, I defended her while they did. Up till the point where she kinda...got weird to me. Haha It's strange how I used to have a crush on her, and now I just see the more I know the person, the better my judgment becomes "well most of the time".

Dude this chair is starting to hurt my back. I am getting tiredddddd! Oh I just remembered, Mai found me on myspace yesturday. I was like wtf, who are you? Anyways Mai is some girl back in highschool I had a crush on, we had spanish class together. I flunked that class because all I did was pretend to listen at the professor and stare at Mai lol. We wrote a few notes to each other back and forth, she knew I liked her and likewise. I forgot the rest of the details. It was back then when I got that butterfly feeling in my stomach when I'm around her. Ever since HS never had the same feeling about a girl again. Is it necessary for me to be that naive about my feelings? When I was a child, I spoke like a child, thought like a child, and reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up my childish ways. Corinthians 13:11. But yeah she's on of those special girls that I wanted. Shes very christian, I hope she is not anything like Tammy. Tammy was a psychotic nymph. Horrid chapter of my life where my innocence was crucified lol.

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Haha I should stop having introductions to these ridiculous posts I make, no one is reading! So anyways, today I awoke to a cell phone on my face vibrating. I rolled to the side and It slipped off my face and landed on the pillow. I gave it a glance and I noticed it was Phuong "Thanks for falling asleep on me". Well reality came flying back at me and I realized I fell asleep on the phone with her last night. For those who don't know, Phuong is this... really cute chick from Texas that I personally think is really cool, bootylicious also pretty darn sexy has a good heart. Anyways its complicated to say ill keep my mouth shut really since I know you're reading! So I check the time posted and it was 11am, then I'm like crap! I'm late for something! normally When my lazy skinny ass wake up I am usually late, but today, today is Sunday. The holy day of mine where I am not required to be anywhere, or do any sorts of things, nothing! So I do my routine of closing my eyes and telling myself another 10 or 20 min.

Fast forward to when I do get up and a few more blah blah text messages back to the lovely Phuong, I realized that no one is home besides my bro that's visiting over the weekend. He's awake in the living room on the laptop. I sit down on the carpet in front of the tv next to him and he says quack quack squabble squabble, then I'm like yeah, fo sho. He gave me a look and says, "You're not awake yet huh, your mind isn't processing anything". Caught red handed! Like hell I knew what he said. Later on the day after some stuff I did, I can't recall honestly. I went out to drop some stuff off at my Aunt's pad, return some vietnamese dvds from my parents. No one was home so I bounced to the barber shop.

This dude, and I mean I feel this is the Dude of all Dudes, Elvis. He's Asian though, now don't get me wrong. Elvis is not some impersonator fan mumbo jumbo crap that you see on tv. My barber been cutting my hair ever since I was TINY, 5 or 6. He's chill, has big hair do slicked back just like Elvis back in the days. Well he had a line of people waiting so I went around the plaza to get some snacks. I dropped by this specialty store that sells exotic asian beef jerk and strange candy. I picked up some gummy bears since I had a crave for it. Everything in this store is priced by pounds, gummys at 5 bucks. Most jerky is at 18 bucks/lb, I have tickets to pay to the mother F'in city, Costa mesa and Santa ana, so no spoiling myself with some juicy stuff today. The funny thing about this store is that they have these old ladies walking around offering you samples of food, except they have a personality of a pushy car sales men. They offer you stuff and ask you how much and fills the bag for you. 9/10 of the time they say is over 1 pound okay? Since they are eyeing it when they scoop up whatever it is you are buying. So I walk up to the register, slide out my debit card and this old Chinese bitch has the audacity to tell me, card with 20 dollar purchases only please. Well I'm not a angry person but let me just say that I have not smoked for a while and I am on a cold turkey process. I tell this chinky bitch what the shit is this! Why can't you chink people realize that the fucking world does not stay in the stone age with your wrinkly ass! I know they do this to avoid taxes, but seriously, come'on. I wouldn't have bought those gummy bears if they weren't a necessity. Left the flippin store as soon as i can to get my hair cut.

Got home, had some dinner with the family. Well, poped a beer since we bought some beer this morning as an offering to my dead uncle, today is the yearly anniversary. I normally don't appreciate the taste of Heineken but why not =). So my sister was like damn, alcoholic. I'm like whatever dude, this is just a second beer. Then my mom started to use this excuse like any opening she has to attack me with blows from actions that I do that she does not condone. Oh look at him, drinking now and even smoking. I been keeping that smoking thing a secret for two years but she recently found out. Annoys the crap out of me, women! gah!!!!! Honestly, no matter where they come from and what background, they all have some genetic trait about saving information and using it against you later on at the right moment. My dad and bro just sat there and shut up since they both smoke. So I just shut up and let the moment pass to another subject they can squabble about. Well yeah they did change conversations and stuff and I got the heat off me.

Vince hit me up a few moments later asking if I want to go to The Lounge next weekend. Should be fun, I need to see some girls, my life is empty as it is. Its the nonexistent romance that left a dry aftertaste in my mouth that I need to wash out. But girls chilling at places like that looking to fuck around or think they are the shit, is that the type of girls I want to look for? I mean those girls have huge vagina's I'm assuming! Now I'm being too stereotypical about people, haha I'm sure I'll have a good time. I usually hate those places.

Hey guys,

Today was the first day of class for me since the long break I had over winter. I can cry and beg for the vacation to come back but life goes on. So today had its up's and down's, a little taste of both worlds. Lets start off with my cell phone deciding not to charge over night and which happened to died in the morning. Meaning..the alarm didn't go off, I was not really late, just late enough that I had to park in China and walk to class. I didn't manage to get into the classes I petitioned for on the waiting list. So I'm stuck with only 9 units this semester, could be worst right? I could have gotten in and had to see the old hag professor, she reminds me of the teacher in one of the fruit roll ups commercial back in the 90's. Red rolled up hair, glasses, cranky looking, and old, straight out of the post WW2 TV shows.

So in my sociology class, girls girls girls girls girls. I believe I finally got what I deserve. Well I can't be too greedy and get them all for myself. I ended up sitting next to this white chick with really blond hair, almost white. Her name is Jessica, and the next heart breaker that walked in the door was a petite Asian girl, blone hair also "not a big fan but it the color flows with this one". She had some cute boots, a red lip ring with red lipstick, DSL for sure. Her name is Lillie, she happened to end up introducing me to the class as a start off. She forgot my major, gave wrong information about me, and she is a little ditsy, fantastic! Me and Jessica had a laugh when she presented me to the class, since Jessica caught he real details about me and Lillie just heard bits and pieces. Let me correct myself, Lillie only remembered bits and pieces.

Fiance had a humorous episode, I ran into Jeff aka Mugen Guy. He ended up sitting in the same row as me with two chicks wedge between us. Wedge as in there was this one girl that made David Lay look like a potato chip, and another.. "healthy" chick next to her. I said hi to them since i heard the healthy girl said she worked at boa like me. I got to say this girl has a cute face and eyes of jewels. So I got caught up in the moment and ended up talking to Jeff, I mentioned to him about the race I lost a few weeks ago to this, qoute "Dude this fat dude in a beaner DA smoked me". Where was my mind? Well I happened to be day dreaming about screwing the girl that sat below me and forgetting that David's sister was sitting next to me, she could squash me like yellow jello. That chick got pissssed! I'm honest, I did not mean to offend her and I was saying all that from the bottom of my heart. The dude I raced was huge no joke. I tried to introduce myself to her a few moments later but to no avail. The woman ignored me with a eh as a reply to all my questions. If I had the courage to apologize I would. But fearful to the consequences from my busty neighbor, Its best to leave it at that. Oh, and afterward I told Jeff about the situation after class, and he cracked up, bad thing is that the same girl was still present listening to our jabbering echo throughout the hallway. Embarrassing indeed.

Here's a glance of my day. I'm a freaking pervert! :D

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So its been a few days, nothing much new to report in. Well sorta, I lied right there. I'm probably not satisfied with out things turned out that's why I said nothing much. Anyways, so I believe Monday night after work I decided to head back to GMR. Yes it has been about a year since I been back to that desolate place. Kinda gave me a eerie creepy feeling on the way there. So I called up my favorite racer buddy, David, to ride with me but his broke ass had wires showing in his tires. It was around 9pm at night, a nice breeze blowing in the air, I was in no mood to help him rotate tires in the dark. So I asked him to shot gun with me instead, everything should work out then. I mean, honestly it is a very very stupid idea to go driving with wires showing on your tires. So in turn it's super duper moronic to go canyon racing at night with the same pair.

So on the way out of the house to shoot some pool before I pick up David for the joy ride somebody I despise gives me a ring. Heiu or Heui I forgot how to spell his name, doesnt matter not important. So first thing he says is "hey have you been to the canyons lately"? HA! I had this grin smirk on my face almost a smile. So i invited him too hoping to get an opportunity to run this son of a bitch pussy off the road. Break a leg, arm, neck, anything, if I'm lucky something worst. So a few hours later after eating and shooting some pool with Fabio I picked up David and gave you know who a ring to meet up and roll out. So ring ring ring, and i hear a faint sleepy hello. So i shout lets go! And this jerk off starts to complain about how late it is and how long I kept him waiting and he fell asleep. First off I don't remember anyone wanting to race before midnight for specific reasons such as cars and popo. So blah blah blah yack yack yack i got off the phone and just forget about him and erase the memory of him for the night and all his excuses. So off me and Mr. racer go!

About an hour later somewhere in GMR "well specificly the bottom of GMR" we run into a Miata, and a Evo IX. Ran up hill, I lost them at the 2nd hairpin so forget about racing i was too rusty. Finally at the top there were two 240sx, the Miata, Evo, S2k, Integra, Me, and something that looks like a piece of junk driven by some whore in the gettos of Europe. It was extremely windy up there, all i had was a tee shirt and jeans. So we stood around and talked and made friends for more then an hour. Around 3am we decided to go home. On the way down hill i regretabily lost to a DA integra driven by a fat beaner guy with altezza taillights. It could not have gotten any more embarrassing. But the important thing is that this time, we got home in one piece! haha.

Now I'm sitting in my room drinking some Rootbeer, I noticed that it taste wayyy better in a glass with ice then straight from the soda can. And right now, all I can think about is yesterday. Susan asked to come over for some reason and we hung out, then stuff happened and we ended up screwing for a little bit. Honestly I wouldn't have done it since she is not my type. I find her nice, but I cant find any emotional attachment to her. She does have some nice tits, but I'm an ass person and i give her a C for booty. =(. But its been a WHILE since i got some so I don't blame myself. I still wish i was fucking someone I wanted. But I might be nuts and I shouldnt be near anyone yet. Its been two years since my last girlfriend so I should be happy, but yet I'm sitting here bitching about getting laid. I will step away and look at myself from another set of eyes. I am a retard. I want so much yet when I do get something it does not satisfy me. She is a nice girl, thats why I still kept talking to her, but for sure she is not for me. But hey, on the bright side, it was fun.

Hey,

Well I know that it's January now but I finally got this picture in from dinner with my mom for her work. I didn't feel like going at all because the night I had to go with her I was supposed to be studying for Econ's finals the next morning. It was a total bust, I was scared shitless that I was going to fail and stuff. Plus that whole week was finals week and I was studying my butt off so it just made me even more nervous about not being home. The dinner was free it was cool, I forgot I had to study for a moment and got myself a drink. I'm a light weight so I shouldn't be drinking since finals was tomorrow. But that slipped my mind and I got a Stella! Yum!

Anyways the night was okay, the old man and his wife sitting in front of me was my moms coworker. That guy is a loser, drunken loud mouth, his wife was not so embarrassed actually but I was, I had to sit with him! At one point i wanted to tell him to shut up because he felt so fobish! I don't have anything against that but dude, he kept on shouting at people trying to get attention. His wife in the red shirt is supposed to be working on her PHD, I heard all fancy stuff about her and whatnot. I was okay with her till she started to make criticism remarks against people around us. Gossip, blah blah, I was assuming she had a little too much to drink but then again the truth comes out when you're drunk. One thing I did like about her is that she admire how i cut the stake. Pretty nice of her, or she was just drunk and flirting around. But somehow I highly doubt that, in my dreams. So here's a picture, I rarely take pictures with family members so I scanned it to be forever saved and stored in the vast internet as internet property.

Whats up again,

I'm having too much fun messing with this blog program thingy lately. Updated the layout too! It is a little girly but it gets the job done, I mean I like it. So I wanted to write about this movie for a month or so because I thought it was really good. If you're going to compare it to say the god father series no this movie is not brilliant. If you're comparing it to say... something simple and fun like Blood Sport 1 2 3 and maybe even 4, then it is a great movie. And guess who is the main actor! Oh my god its Jean-Claude Van Damme! waaAAA PooWWWoWW, I love it when he does the weird eye thingy after he punches someone and everything slows down.
That my friend is a classic guy movie, I remember watching that when I was a kid and barely knew English. I know, bullshit right? Van Damme is a joke of an actor. Anyways JCVD is a new movie by Van Damme about himself as an actor. There are many reviews about this movie so I won't get into details, its French btw so don't expect much media in the states promoting it. It's just that I thought the change from mindless ass kicking in an underground secret tournament to a movie about this emotional chapter of his life is deserving of some notice. Maybe not from everyone I am sure he has many many many haters, mostly women, but JCVD has this monologue scene that is seamlessly weaved into the movie. In this scene he just talks about his true life and what he believes is really him. His own honest viewpoint of his accomplishments but with a lot of emotions, almost as if he was watching Oprah. This scene talks to the audience directly, something not many movies have these days. JCVD still savors some characteristics that is funny and amusing enough to not be so serious. Not high budget, but the plot is simple and deep which makes for a fun viewing. But do not mistake this for a basic kick ass movie. This belongs "near" the shelf of movies such as Pulp Fiction, not Blood Sport.

So last night my buddy danny linked me to a picture some chick. Well I thought nothing of it like it wasn't some special treat. I guessed wrong, it was some sorta okay looking girl in some very nice Victoria Secret lingerie. This happened to be, well danny said her name is Michelle. She happened to be the same girl that was working at hooters a few months ago when i went there for a little food on my 21st birthday. I still have the Tee shirt from that night, my buddies got a bunch of girls to sign it and stuff. Of course they also gave their own personal touch with quality images of penises, Van Gogh quality.
Anyways so i dug in the year book and I managed to find her, Michelle Na class of 2006, the year right after mine. Honestly I never bothered to think much of her as appealing or cute in high school. She wasn't ugly, but she kept to herself in a different group from mine. Here's a little something I put together, decided to be creative ha!


Also, none of this would be possible without Jimmy. Thank you for the printer scanner combo, I can finally print out homework!

Hello world,

This is to whomever decides or happens to end up reading my post. I made this as of tonight, just a few min ago to kill some time. I noticed my new laptop is pretty crappy for playing video games and I am too lazy to play with the ps2. So yeah, that's pretty much it. Oh I did have another blog before, it was about pretty girls and stuff but It got boring fast. Also due to lack of materials.

So lets see, this week was okay for me. I did manage to lay myself a ticket yesterday for driving and talking on the phone ( thank you vince ). Well I should'nt blame it on him It was my fault technically. I noticed him in my side mirror, the tiny one for those of you who know, and i immediately got off the phone before he got right behind me. Then the glorious flashing lights came on, super! This guy was slick he was 3 cars behind me so im guessing he busted a bitch and saw me. Anyways I am just grateful he did not pop my hood and started to poke around my car with nasty comments about my civic. If so that would have taken hours and cost me a fortune in fix it tickets and fines.
That is if he decides to even let me drive the car home. So other then the 20 dollar cellphone ticket and a fix it for having a expired uhhh..insurance card it was the fastest inconvenience I had with an officer.

Also today my boss had the nerve to call me while i was on the way to work to remind me that I was again late for work, which i wasn't really. So i told her that and she went silent for a moment and decided to apologize, her reasoning was that she was just used to calling me so often to remind me that I am again late for work. I reminded her that I already had a ticket for talking and driving to get her off the phone and stfu and it worked great =).

Oh and tonight.. a few hours ago my baby Natasha, thats my car i name them all natasha's, decided to drive with three cylinders on the way home. Freaked the hell out of me since i was driving it "spiritedly" at that moment. Got home thought it was a dead sparkplug because me and danny made a mistake of trying to gap and platinum spark plug. We didn't find out it was unnecessary after the 2nd plug, we make great mechanics actually! I'll update this with some pictures for fun tomorrow or whenever. The problem was minor, poped the hood and found out a wire came loose from the distrubitor, all that was needed was for me to pop it back in and wa la everything worked again!

Also went to DV2 tonight for some fun finally! Been waiting for months to hang out at this place again. Hey a guy has needs, trust me. Any who Danny wants to check out my blog right now so im going to end this quick so that I will be able to make my first post.