So this morning, around 12:30am, I got hungry fighting the urge to smoke. It was one of the hardest thing to do, I felt as if I had a strong restless urge to do something. The itch was eating away from me. I went to the fridge to scope for some food but no snacks were available. Instead there was a case of Heineken beer. I normally don't like Heineken but it was that or nothing. Half way through the can I got hungry. So I drove down the street to get some wings at the diamond plaza!

Chatted with the dude working there, he was chill. I was talking trash about this stupid city. Boy I wish it would just rip itself apart. This conformist city that is populated by a majority of imitation bourgeoisie.

Hurray!@ my dinner snack!

When I ordered the chicken, the clerk offered me the menu to choose from a list that had names for the type of acid that will come out of my ass the next morning. It ranged from mild "basic" original spicy, extra spicy, and kamikaza "which i had a week ago". SO i got myself extra spicy, wasn't too bad but I did sweat when it came down to the last two wings in there bathing in hot sauce left at the bottom of the container. The good thing about extra spicy is that it did not hurt too bad, and I got to spend about 20min of paid work time sitting on the throne.

i am such a loser, im drinking heineken in my room alone
(11:31:51 PM): and downloading crappy illegal movies =(
(11:32:03 PM): made for teens

Its late night, and no one feels like going to bed early. So even if we have work tomorrow morning we just sit here and enjoy the night breeze, the cool air on the skin and the glow of the moon makes everything feel right at place. That is, until you wake up late for work =O

So, I been trying to quit smoking and its working fairly...okay. Nothing that I cant handle, actually I'm going insane! FUCK SHIT CUNT asl;dkfjsl;jdf!!@Q#$@Q$%R I feel like, I am super restless and edgy. I been trying to keep myself preoccupied by doing something. Nothing is really working besides researching crap I wanna buy for a ridiculous amount of money! Sooooooooooooooo I'm just having this crazy surge of anxiety. Soon, I will start doing yoga to help myself. I really need to quit, but sometimes I look back and for one sec not give a fuck and light up somewhere else.
I don't want to keep talking about smoking on right now. So lets leave it at that?

So me and Susan broke up, a week ago about. I feel as if thats the best for both of us, she is on a different page and point of life then I am correct? I do miss her, especially the way she treats me. I might be selfish by trying to get her to hang out with me lately, which she hasn't, she has way better will power then me. Or its that I'm just a pig and she is not. I should look for a new girlfriend or at least date around. I'm hoping Susan will find the right guy, she deserves much better then me.

Oh remember when I wrote about the new keyboard I got last year? Well I'm still using it and I hate it! I learned about daskeyboard, cherry, and FILCO Majestouch keyboards and I am so stoked on the clicky sounds. Makes me feel like the keyboard I'm using right now is a piece of shit. But for around 120 bucks, they are super plain and a big waste of money.

Leave it at that, I'll see how the smoking goes.